The Beans

Secret Baby Files – 7 weeks


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We got to see our little Beans again!


It was so amazing.  We got to see their little heartbeats (Lima bean was 133 and Butter bean was 135) and the ultrasound tech said they looked perfect!  They were squirming all around and we could even see the umbilical cords.  I can’t even…they just became so real!


Your baby’s approximately a quarter of an inch in length now — about the size of a blueberry. Sounds pretty tiny still? Consider this for a little perspective: Your baby is 10,000 times bigger now than it was at conception a month ago. At 7 weeks pregnant, most of that growth is concentrated in the head (the better to store all those smarts) as new brain cells are generated at the rate of 100 per minute. How’s that for a budding genius?

And talking about buds, your baby is going out on a limb this week. Its arm and leg buds begin to sprout and grow longer (and stronger), dividing into hand, arm and shoulder segments — and leg, knee and foot segments (though the limb buds look more like paddles than hands or feet at this early stage).

Also forming this week are your baby’s mouth and tongue. And although your embryo is just one month old, it’s already gone through three sets of kidneys. The ones in place now are the permanent set and are poised to begin their important work of waste management. In about a week, your baby will start producing urine. Lucky for you, there’s no need for diapers (yet). As your baby matures inside you, much of that urine will be excreted into the amniotic fluid, swallowed again by your baby and then excreted again in a continuous cycle.



We officially graduated from the Reproductive Endocrinologist!  It is a bittersweet goodbye.  Those folks at Magee are amazing but I’m so ready to be a regular pregnant lady!  I know we were very open about round 1 and haven’t said much about round 2.  We didn’t want to have to make all of those calls (or write a another blog post) if it was unsuccessful and quite frankly, I’m sick of talking about infertility.   Sick. Of. It.

So, the IVF/Infertility subject is officially closed.  I’m sure yinz all can understand.  Now if you want to talk about how cute my bump is or my lovely pregnancy glow, let’s go!


Bloat…most of my pants still fit.  Not well, but they fit.  I bought about 20 pairs of pants and a bunch shirts off of ebay (for a grand total of $125)…I’m not breaking the bank on maternity clothes. I may need a few more things (like a winter coat!) but hoping to keep my pregnancy gear budget pretty small.

Allergies…I haven’t had do deal with seasonal allergies since high school.  But I’m spending my mornings buried in kleenex and eye drops.  Things usually clear up by noon

Fatigue…zzzzzzzz zzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzz zzzz zzzzzzz zzzzz.

Sorry, I fell asleep typing this.  Not too bad until 2:00/3:00.  Then I need to walk around a bit to wake up.  I guess I kind of overdid it on Saturday because Sunday I was wiped out!  I took a 3 hour nap.  I had about 15 things I wanted to get done so I’m pretty proud of myself for listening to my body.

Sleep…I told Jerry these Beans must be going through a growth spurt because they are sucking the life out of me!  Do not try to get me to do anything past 8:30.  There will be tears.  I fall asleep in 2.2 seconds and one night I didn’t get up to pee until 4:45am!!!

Nausea…the Beans have been very kind to me! I’m still taking 50 mgs of B6 everyday, so it could be a preemptive strike.  I have brief moments of yuckiness (that’s a technical term), usually if I eat too much, too fast.  But for the most part,  it’s all good in the hood!

Smell…Still a superpower.  Still hate cigarettes.

The big C…Ugh, it showed up this week.  I jinxed myself calling my digestive system a rockstar.  Now my moves are not like Jagger.  Must be all of the carbs and cheese I’ve been eating.  doyathink?!?!


So for those of you new to the party, I had a blood clot in my leg in 2008. I was put on a blood thinner for 6 months (Coumadin is not for the faint of heart) and long story short, haven’t had any problems since (knock on wood).  But because I have a history of clots, and clots are more common in pregnancy, I am on a preventative, low dose of Lovenox (another blood thinner) until I deliver.

So in addition to the Progesterone in Oil shots Jerry has to give me until 12 weeks (these are the shots with the ONE AND A HALF INCH needle are injected into my butt muscle), I have to give myself the Lovenox shot every morning.  I do not remember these hurting but they are a SOB!  The needle isn’t the big deal but that medicine burns like crazy going in. I know…suck it up, buttercup.  It’s all for the greater good!


This is my idea of heaven right now


A big plate of Mrs. T’s covered in hot sauce.  I finished this plate and had to leave the kitchen for fear I’d make more.  I ate some brussels sprouts too.  Bam…a vegetable!

Carbs are still my favorite thing on the planet.  And fruit slushies.  Equal parts frozen fruit & coconut water.  OMG, it’s heaven!  I’m loving pretty much all fruit.

sidenote:  My magic bullet bit the dust this week (I know Jerry…you had a perfectly good spare that I made you give away 3 years ago. I heard you the first 85 times you mentioned it).  I’ve put a Nutribullet at the top of my Xmas list.  Never fear, I have a Ninja that works great but for single servings, the Bullet is perfect.

No real aversions, just not too interested in meat, veggies or hard boiled eggs right now.  I’ll eat them, but only under protest.




Very weepy.  Honey boo boo finale…waterworks. Eric the Actor tribute…waterworks. ASPCA commercial…waterworks.  Boo hoo hoo…all the live long day.

Very irritable.  I go through these moments where I just want everyone to stop talking.  Not just talking to me. Talking in general.  People are pretty annoying if you stop and listen to them.  I can’t tune them out and I just want them to SHUT UP!.

Very happy.   This is my mood 90% of the time.  I’m still thrilled to be pregnant and am carrying around an attitude of gratitude (good grief, now I’m the annoying one).

I’m all over the place.


Quote of the week…”Are the Beans hungry for ice cream?”

The Beans

Secret Baby Files – 6 weeks

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You might be coping with full-blown pregnancy symptoms (sorry), but there’s plenty of good news too. The folds of tissue in the prominent bump on top (the head) are developing into your baby’s jaw, cheeks and chin — what will eventually become one adorable face. And are those little indentations on both sides of the head the adorable dimples you always hoped your baby would inherit from your mom’s side of the family? No, they’re ear canals in the making. Small bumps on the face will form the eyes and button nose in a few weeks time. Also taking shape this week: her kidneys, liver and lungs, along with her little heart, which is now beating 80 times a minute (and getting faster every day).


Bloat Chub…getting dressed for work is becoming problematic.  My pants are already tight!  I’m going to need my own zip code by the time this is all over.  I hacked up a spanx tank top (the generic kind…not real spanx!) and fashioned myself a little belly band.  Most of my pants still button but it helps smooth out the muffin top that I’m sporting.

Fatigue…Let’s play a fun game.  Let’s take Unisom and then go to work.  Yay!  That is me.  All day long.  Getting up from my desk and taking a lap around the floor helps.  As does drinking tons and tons of water.

Sleep…oh so good.  Cannot get enough.  Barely any insomnia this week.

Nausea…No actual omgimgonnavomitrightnow episodes.  But I’m sure they’re coming.  I’m taking 25 mgs of B6 twice a day and drinking decaf peppermint tea like it’s my job.  So far so good!

Smell…Everyone in Western PA needs to stop smoking immediately.  Whyyyyyyyy do I have to get on the elevator with a flock of smokers just returning from their smoking huts???  Ugh, it’s seriously the grossest thing ever.  Maybe I’ll throw up on one of them.  Ahahahahaaaaaa!  That would be so funny.  I’ll bet I’d make the company newsletter!

Symptoms I don’t have (yet)

My skin is still glowing and my digestive system is a rockstar.  Yay me!!

No crazy starvation, although I’m not missing any meals.


I’ll take a order of carbs with a side of carbs…and why not add some extra carbs just in case.  I WANT ALL THE CARBS!  Especially the ones covered in cheese and butter.

And fruit.  Loving honeycrisp apples right now!

I’m so thirsty all of the time.  I swear I drink 2 gallons of ice water a day.  I know staying hydrated is super important and I play a game with myself.  I have a 12 oz class of water I keep on my desk.  I can’t use the bathroom until I finish it.  So basically I’m peeing every 15 minutes.

No serious aversions yet. Veggies sound pretty blah (hmmmm, can I cover then in butter or cheese???)  but they’re not making me sick.  Meat and Seafood is kinda meh.  I can take it or leave it.  And I think I’m done with my beloved hardboiled eggs for a bit.  I don’t hate them, but after I eat 1 half, I’m kinda like “yeah, no…” and toss the rest.


Lots of walking still.  I’m at about 30 minutes per day with an hour each weekend day.  But that’s really it.


Just call me water works.  I’ve been crying at the drop of a hat.  You should have seen me picking out Jerry’s anniversary card.  It was embarrassing.  Most days I’m walking on sunshine (seriously, I walk around singing that song).  Maybe it’s the weather (it’s been perfection here lately), maybe I’m just geeked out to still be pregnant.  What ever it is…I’ll take it!


Still overprotective. Still my hero.  He lets me go to sleep at 8:00 and doesn’t complain about Jacob duty.  He lets me hog the bed because I’m sleeping so well.  Dinner is whatever I’m in the mood for.  He painted the whole most of the garage by himself this weekend (and wooboy, does he hate to paint!).  He’s a peach.

Quote of the week…”I don’t think you’re supposed to eat caramelized onions while you’re pregnant”.  Huh???

The Beans

Secret Baby Files – 5 weeks

 Here are some updates on our babies…

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Yes, you heard that correctly…babies.  We found out on Thursday that we have 2 gestational sacs.  Which means, we are looking at TWINS!



It takes a lot of developing to become a baby — all the major (and minor) bodily systems (digestive, circulatory, nervous and so on) and organs (heart, lungs, stomach…you get the idea) have to form from scratch. One of the first systems to be operational is the circulatory (or blood) system — along with its companion organ: the heart, which you may even be able to see it beating on an early ultrasound. When you’re 5 weeks pregnant, your baby’s heart is made up of two tiny channels called heart tubes — and they’re already hard at work, beating to their own drummer (it will be weeks before those beats become coordinated). When those tubes fuse together, your baby will have a fully functioning heart (though it almost certainly already has its grip on yours). Also in the works this week are several other organs, including the neural tube (the precursor to your baby’s brain and spinal cord), which hasn’t yet sealed (but by next week, that open-door policy is over).


Bloat…I already look like I’m 16 weeks pregnant.  This could be due to 2 babies growing in there.  Or could be b/c I’m just prone to bloat.

Fatigue…I’m useless by 3:00.  So. Tired. And I’m pretty much done for the day by 8:30.

Sleep…Ugh…hit or miss.  I did something to my right shoulder and have been having a lot of pain.  I usually fall asleep on my left side but wake myself up when I turn over. OUCH.  It’s some sort of muscle thing probably aggravated by 90lb wooly mammoth I’ve been walking everyday around the hood.  In addition, 2:30 am seems to be the witching hour.  I usually wake up to pee and then stare at the ceiling for an hour or two.

Nausea…spin around in a circle for 60 seconds and then stop.  That’s the feeling that hits me several times a day. It’s short lived, so I’m not complaining.

Smell…Could you ladies please lay off the perfume?  Sheesh…you dab it, not drown in it.

Nails…they’re going at an alarming pace.  RB will be very proud!

Symptoms I don’t have (yet)

Acne…This is often a problem for a lot of women when pregnant.  And by this point I figured I’d look like a 14 year old boy.  But (knock on wood) thus far, my skin has been great.  I credit the Clairsonic and my favorite Peter Thomas Roth cleanser.  And water.  So much water.  That can’t hurt.

The big C…who wants to hear about my very active digestive tract?!?!  Constipation is a pretty standard complaint.  And one that I was certain I’d be cursed with.  Heck, I’m cursed with it when I’m NOT pregnant.  (TMI?  Too bad.)  Now I’m very regular!  That is all.


Still loving food.  I went to dinner with my girlfriends on Thursdays and was shoveling queso in my face at a lightening speed.  I’m sure it was a bit alarming….but it will all become clear in a few weeks.  I’m so thirsty all the time.  I chug ice water all day long.

No real aversions yet.  I made blackened salmon this week and while I didn’t hate it, I just didn’t want it.


Lots of walking still.  I’m at about 30 minutes per day with an hour each weekend day.  I’m cleared for light weightlifting, easy cardio and swimming.  I’m hoping to add 15 – 20 minutes of strength training each day.  Need to stop hoping and start doing!!


For the most part…great!  I had one day where I felt like I was on the verge of tears all day.  And then I yelled at Jerry for 15 minutes about how messy & unorganized our house was.  He is amazing.  He didn’t even yell back :)…he just puts up with me until I’m done with my rant and then gives me a hug and I feel bad for taking my hormones out on him.


In reference to the twins, Jerry is FREAKING OUT doing OK.  Of course he’s happy our babies are doing well but he’s a little concerned with the whole financial aspect of it.  I’m just going with the flow.  It will all work out.  We need scale back on some of the frivolous living we tend to do.  And we’ll probably be moving within the next 3 years but let’s just take it one day at a time. (Who am I???)

Quote of the week…”You’re gonna get so huge!”  Thanks honey.

The Beans

Secret Baby Files – 4 weeks

First week beta = 506!  We’re officially pregnant!


The Baby

Our baby looks like this right now.



Despite its extremely tiny size, your little embryo is busy setting up house. While the amniotic sac (also called the bag of waters) forms around it, so does the yolk sac (don’t worry, you’re not having a chicken), which will later be incorporated into your baby’s developing digestive tract. And the embryo now has three distinct layers of cells that will grow into specialized parts of your baby’s body. The inner layer, known as the endoderm, will develop into your baby’s digestive system, liver and lungs. The middle layer, called the mesoderm, will soon be your baby’s heart, sex organs, bones, kidneys and muscles. The outer layer or ectoderm, will eventually form your baby’s nervous system, hair, skin and eyes.


Fatigue…I’m great in the morning but man, by 3:00, I need a nap!  I took 2 over the weekend…and I’m NOT a napper.  I’ve been getting into bed around 8:30 and fall asleep by 9:30.

Sleep…Asleep by 9:30…awake by 2:30.  I know insomnia is going to be a problem. I’m not happy about this.  I did sleep through the night 3 times this week so that’s promising.

Boobs…big and sore.  My bras barely fit but I know it’s going to get worse so I’m putting off buying new ones as long as I can.

Nausea…not much yet. I have a few moments here and there like I’ve had too much caffeine on an empty stomach.  A little dizzy and queasy, but it goes away quickly.  Hoping to keep it this way!

Smell…I have a super power!  Good grief, my sense of smell is off the charts.  Bad smells are SUPER bad and good smells are SUPER good.


Food tastes so amazing right now.  It’s like my taste buds are supercharged!  I’m trying to focus on healthy food because, well, because I’m growing our little person and I want a big, fat healthy baby.  And, I know food is going to be disgusting in a few weeks (I have no grand delusions that I will be one of those lucky women who doesn’t get morning/all day sickness) so might as well enjoy it while I can.

No aversions yet!


I’m still pretty bloated from the extra hormones.  I’m about 10 lbs heavier for my starting weight than I’d like to be (also partially from the hormones).  But it is what it is.  I’ve been doing a lot of walking but not really much else in terms of exercise.  I’m hoping to get cleared for some yoga, Pilates, Zumba, light weight training, etc.  I know exercise helps with fatigue, promotes better sleep and just makes you feel better in general.


Great!  I think I’m just too thrilled at this point.  My mood has been great!  The only meltdown I had was when I found out we were pregnant. Lots of happy tears!


My Rock. My Comedian. My BFF.  My Whole Wide World.  My Jerry.  He’s been nothing short of spectacular with everything baby.  From what got us here to where we are now.  I’d be a hot mess without him.  We are a great team and we’re going to be great parents!

And..he’s on top of everything.  We’re pushing extreme here.  At 8:30 pm…”OK, time for bed!  You need your rest”.  If I make a noise…”What’s wrong?!?!”.  At dinner…”Are you allowed eat that?”.  It’s cute albiet a little over the top. He’ll figure it all out.

Quote of the week…”How’s your uterus feel today?”



The Beans

Time To Spill The Beans

I know it’s been radio silence for a few weeks on this little blog.  There is good reason…

I’d like to introduce you to our little beans:


That’s right, boys and girls…after 1 miscarriage, 2 rounds of IVF and 3 years of trying to start our family, Jerry and I are expecting TWINS!  (What the what?!?!)  Lima bean is on the left, Butter bean is on the right.

In case you have questions, here are some answers:

* We did our 2nd round of IVF in August. Yes, in addition to packing up our apartment, moving into Lot 256, Jerry going to Dallas for 4 days on business, Jerry’s birthday, the cousin’s wedding in Rhode Island (which we had miss…whaaaa!) and a visit from Jerry’s family…we decided to make a baby.  Or as it turns out, 2 babies.

*  We graduated from our RE (reproductive endocrinologist) on the 9/23.  Because of my age, history of blood clots and the multiple pregnancy, I will be considered high risk and be monitored by MFM (maternal fetal medicine).  I will be on Lovenox (a bloodthinner) for the entire pregnancy.  Yay…more shots!!  Worth every single one…

*  The shock of twins is still sinking in.  It’s thrilling yet a little terrifying.  But we are embracing  this amazing gift and taking it one day at a time.  Fortunately, we have our own personal twin hotline in our BFFs, The Laws!  JLaw, wanna move in for a few months in May???

*  My preliminary due date is 5/13.  That would be 40 weeks.  I’m guessing that will change.  There are so many variables with a multiple pregnancy, but if all goes well (and it will), we’ll most likely deliver at 37/38 weeks. I want to cook these little beans as long as I can!  I’m setting mini goals for myself to make it less intimidating.  First one is 12 weeks.  We made it!

*  We will be finding out the sex(es).  Jerry & I always wanted to wait and find out the sex when the baby is born.  But level heads have prevailed and we recognize that 2 babies take a lot more planning than 1.  We’ll be doing some sort of gender reveal thing on the blog.  Jerry wants two boys We don’t care about the sex of the babies, we just want them to be healthy I want one of each.  Obviously.  So we’ll probably have two girls (YAY!)

*  We will NOT be telling what names we are considering/have chosen.  Don’t even ask. I am not interested in anyone’s opinion on our chosen monikers and it will be a lot harder to make fun of them when you’re looking at our sweet little babes.  And something has to be a surprise!

*  We will be more than happy to take any no longer used clothes, toys, books, random baby stuff off of your hands!  Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

*  I’ve been feeling pretty darn fantastic.  I have been blessed with an amazing first trimester.  Not much nausea, zero throwing up, no headaches.  I have been pretty tired but fortunately it doesn’t hit until around 3:00 in the afternoon.  I can usually catch a second wind with a long walk (Jacob is a fabulous walking partner!) but I’m toast by 8:30. Good thing not-pregnant me loves to crawl into bed by 9:00 anyway.  I get weepy quickly but it’s short lived.  I don’t think I’ve been too moody, but you’ll have to ask Jerry for the truth on that one.

*  I’ve been keeping secret baby files…this blog is about to get busy!  They were all written in real time as my pregnancy has progressed.  Some of the info will be redundant.  But this is a diary primarily for Jerry & I to look back on.  I’m currently in week 12 and we’ll be caught up pretty soon.

*  Most of the people who read this blog have been told our big news.  If you happen to be someone we know in real life, please keep it off of social media.  We’re not going public (FB official) until around Halloween.   It’s our news to share, mkay?  Thanks a bunch!

So that’s about it.

We’re feeling unbelievably blessed and so, so thankful for these babies!  I’ve been keeping an insanely positive attitude from day one and have completely thrown my “Hope for the best, prepare for the worst” mentality right out the window.  I have so much faith in these babies!  And in my body to take good care of them.  I have faith in Jerry and I as a team.  And I have faith that we can handle whatever is thrown at us.  It’s easy to be fearful and to obsess on what could go wrong.  But I’m having none of that.  I am choosing to focus on what will go RIGHT.

We can’t wait to meet you, Beans!